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[29 Nov 2006|06:01pm] stupid computer. post comment

[15 Aug 2006|12:13am] Alright... I hate this journal, and it takestoo long to delete too much.. my new journal= xbuttsx315 ADD ME. 1 comment|post comment

[05 Aug 2006|02:36pm] [ mood | excited ] SO EXCITED!! MONDAY! Thats what 2 days??!?!? Gorilla Biscuits is playing at the country club this monday! I pre-ordered my ticket and its hanging on mu bulletin board for safe keeping!!!! I cant believe its almost here! Iv been waiting soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long!! Comeback Kid, Murpheys Law, and Normandy are also playing. I dont like Comeback kid very much, except that one song. & Iv never heard Murpheys Law, but I like watching Normandy. Their just real fun to watch! This show is going to be sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!! post comment

[31 Jul 2006|12:04pm] things are good. 1 comment|post comment

[13 Jul 2006|12:43pm] Today Im going to Liverpool with Scott, Reggie, Will H, and Joe H. I think we're going to the park. I hope its got something I can do! post comment

[10 Jul 2006|12:51am] Today... was amazing. soccer was kick ass! I skinned my knees,but it was worth it! I sang along to Outbreak and Bane!! I also watched black SS and they were crazy! & I hadnt heard This Is Hell before, but they were sick too! The show was crazy! PLus I got to meet some new people! After a few people came over n swam and I had a litle bonfire. It was chill, which was good bc Im totally beat. I bought a Black SS short sleeve.. and an Outbreak shirt! The one that says YOU'RE SCUM on the front and Outbreak on the back. it looks likes its backwards, but its still sick! I also bought a sick Brother Keeper shirt yesterday for $4! SWEET! Today was beyond amazing! The only thing that ruined it was Matt being a dickhole tonight. I was just in his room talking to him for like an hour about today, and then it turned sour, so I left and now Im here! HE CANT EVEN BRING ME DOWN RIGHT NOW!! uh. Today was awsome. post comment

EXCITED [07 Jul 2006|12:43pm] SO SIKED FOR THIS WEEKEND!!! post comment

[05 Jul 2006|04:09pm] ok, i may not be getting a puppy. My dog is too sick to handle any pther dogs around right now. that makes me sad. I hope she gets better. Yea. me and Matt are back teogher. again. shut up. im REAL sick right now. dont ask. i dont know why imupdating this now. post comment

[30 Jun 2006|10:59am] IM GETTING A PUPPYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! post comment

[29 Jun 2006|10:52am] IM SIKED ON LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! next weekend is going to be so crazy! you dont understand!! Saturday is Edge Fest.. Sunday at 1 were its the auburn vs syracuse soccer game!!! then BANE AND FUCKING OUTBREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 then everyone in the 315 is invtied to my house!!! i dont know if i can contain my excitment! tonight me and amanda and emily are going to make sweet shirts! but right now i gotta get matts car back to him, so i gotta shower! then im giog to skate! I DEFINATELY DROPPED IN ON THE MINI!! first girl to do that ever! n i didnt fall! SO SIKED ON LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!! post comment

[27 Jun 2006|08:26am] So i got a new cell phone. if you want the number ask me, and ill give it to in privately. or if you know my aim sn, its probably posted there.. anways.. im suppose to hang out with this kid today.. yea. dont ask how we met bc its kinda weird. idk. im kinda siked. Matt found out. he kept texting my phone last night. blah. idk. im exctied! and i like story of the year. kill yourself. idc. the singers sxe. and hot! post comment

[22 Jun 2006|10:00am] I HATE HIM SO MUCH i love him. why cant he love me back. he hung out last night and acted 100% fine. it hurts so much. i fucking hate it. WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?? I FUCKING HATE YOU SO MUCH. post comment

[18 Jun 2006|04:24pm] Its hard. so hard. I hate everything. bottom line. fuck off. fuck you. i hate everything. Im doing horrible! I cry too much! I hate him. I FUCKING HATE YOU SO MUCH. 2 comments|post comment

[17 Jun 2006|02:45pm] Some days are good, others are bad. I got a job. I work at Sunset as a dishwasher. It could be way worse. My last final is Monday. I have to pass it to pass the year. scary. Then at 1 I have a road test. Tonight me and Matt are suppose to go and drive around so I can practice. yea, we're friends. I miss him. I have other friends though, and they are sweet. <3 thanks. PS-I hate updating this thing, I just get bored. post comment

[12 Jun 2006|07:07pm] So today... I went and talked to Micahel Anne. I got saved. :) Iv been thinking about that for a while, and Im happy I had that talk with her! post comment

[11 Jun 2006|09:42pm] Iv realized alot about myself. Alot of what Matt said to me was true. Not all of it, but alot. Of course Im sad over Matt, but Im trying to keep it togheter. I want to be friends with him, but he wont talk to me. Im doing ok. I miss him though. bad. Im going to stay strong though. Theres alot of other things going on in my life right now. Im just really confused about alot. I went to church today. Tomorrow Im goign to talk to Michael Ann about stuff. I know I dont like who I am. Things are gunna change. I know who I want to be, and Im going to become that person. with or without Matt. Iv learned from my mistakes, and Im still learning. In the end, Im going to be a stronger better person. I cant wait for that day to come. Im going to be so happy. post comment

[09 Jun 2006|06:55pm] someoneone AIM: when are you going to realize matt is a piece of shit xBUTTSx: you dont know him. xBUTTSx: i know hes a fuckin retarded xBUTTSx: but you dont know him like i do I dont know what to think. maybe me and matt really arent supose to be togehter. I know he does alot of dumb things, and always thinks hes right, but idk. I wish things were back to being awsome. post comment

[09 Jun 2006|08:06am] Well todays the last day of school. realllly gay. its been turned into this big ordeal. something about buses and emerson park, and yearbooks, but not if you skippe don senior skip day, but no one wants to go anyways, everyone just wants there yearbooks. idk. its MAD gay I want to just get my yearbook and get the ef out. it so dumb they waited til our last day, no ones gunna be able to sign them now. my senior class is filled with retards. its retarded. i want to punch the senior officers in the face. fucking idiots. amanda might fail. gay. After school Im gettin my hair cut, and going to work out at the gym till 2 ish. then i got an interview at sunset. Im getting a job!! finally then Im going to the Red Death show in Elmira with Matt Aaron and I think that Jeanie Shaw girl. I dont know her, but everyone talks about how sehs awsome and plays video games and junk. uhh I love this band so much right now.. darkest hour. They make me so happy. anyways, in other news. Me and Matt are awsome. We got into a dumb fight last night, but then he just stopped and hugged me and we just talked it out and everything was fine again. I like how me and him are. I dont like how things with me and Brian turned out though. its retrded. I imed him today and he just stopped talkin to me. Hes like mad at me bc i told him i didnt want to hang out for a little while, just to give matt some time to get use to it. I mean, look what I did to Matt. I know if I was in his situation, and he even TALKED to that girl again, I would murder them both. I dont know. I just wish Brian would still talk to me and just be friends. Hes a good kid, and I dont like whats happened. I just want a little time for everything between everybody to get settled. Whenever I think about what happened I get this gross stomache ache, and just feel like.. disgusting. Like I tainted me and Matts relationship. Im not saying this bc of brian, im saying this bc look what I did? I pulled the biggest scumbag move you could make. I feel so gross and guilty. uh whatever. I need to stop. just stop. its over. i want to forget it happened and be with matt and be friends with brian. im a fucking retard. what was i thinking. post comment

[06 Jun 2006|10:43am] Today is 6/6/6. o0o0o0o0o0o. post comment

[03 Jun 2006|09:26am] I went over to Matts to give him his stuff back. I knocked on his door and he hugged me. :) Me and Matt are fine and so are me and Brian. Alot is going through my head. but I dont want to type. im happy. post comment

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